There is a sick desperation in my laugh today.
Life as I know it is over, I say to myself.
Hard though it is to understand, compromise is all i am left to do.
All the things i used to hate about my home feel so flowery suddenly.
But I love the way I am, even when the world pushes me to change, I justify my resistance.
And there is a sick desperation in my laugh today.

There is a hollow sarcasm in my words today.
The choice was mine and I was proud, I know I was.
But this is not the job i signed up for, though there is no going back.
Sometimes I wish life had a reverse gear.
Sometimes I feel I don't deserve this marvel, sometimes I feel it doesn't deserve me, and this war goes on.
And there is a hollow sarcasm in my words today.

There is a rabbit-hole in front of my eyes today.
All run to get into it, even I did.
Got rejected like a bad organ transplant, though I tried to suit myself according to it.
Now that I am outside, all i see is fallacy.
I see how it converts a human being into a machine, replacing the basic instincts with CV points.
And there is a rabbit-hole in front of my eyes today.

There is a huge cancer in the world today.
Slowly killing whatever the planet stood for.
I see how people are so eager to stab, so eager to bleed and so eager to die.
I see a father, blind though he is, throwing his son to the demon .
I see people dive deep into the dark, without knowing if there is light at the bottom, cause none came up yet.
There is a huge cancer in the world today.

There it goes..

Treat me with reverence and I will treat you with dignity.
You know I need you and I know you want me.
But my ego refuses to bow down and beg.
And you wait for the day I kiss your hand and propose.
So we walk, miles down the road.
Side by side, but don’t cross paths.
We both feel the other’s presence getting close,
But we don’t look eye to eye.
Then comes the day I wake up and start to walk.
But I no longer feel you beside me.
I search for you and look for you.
And the thought of losing you haunts my day.
I promise, to put my ego aside,
And hold your hand the moment I see them.
The day goes on and I run for solace.
And the day goes on, desperation dripping from my face.
In this day of wandering and wandering,
I finally see you when the sun sets.
I see you are being carried.
By a gentle man, gentle enough to bow.
Gentle enough to wear a suit.
To go down on his knees,
Give a rose and propose.
You find this offer too enticing to refuse.
You say you still waited for me but you lie.
You never wanted me I feel.
My respect, you don’t deserve.
And I cry my heart out.
Call you back with all my soul.
But you are too far now.
And my ego refuses to bow.